Stood Up

Welp, D stood me up. 

I had a feeling that was going to happen. Just instinct. I woke up this morning in a bad mood and I wasn’t sure why. I kept trying to psych myself up for the date, and I just couldn’t. I kept asking myself, “What is wrong, Jasmine? You have a date tonight, get excited!”

But deep down, I just knew it wasn’t going to happen.

I texted him around 5:30PM saying, “We’re still on for tonight…?” and he never responded. I really don’t know how I knew but my instincts have never been wrong about anything. I guess I shouldn’t be too down about it, seeing that he plagiarized a line in his profile, lol… That’s pretty lame.

I have to admit, I’m disappointed. I wish my instincts picked up on it sooner, because I was looking forward to meeting him. He still seemed funny, and we were just texting a few days ago, exchanging jokes and whatnot. I never really understand it when these things happen. 

At least I got to save some gas. Lord knows I’ll need every drop for my camping trip next weekend.

I’ve stopped talking to W—abruptly, I might add. I just wasn’t feeling him, and I guess that’s what happened to me? I never joked around with him though… he didn’t really give off that fun vibe. D and I had a fun back and forth. 

Anyway, he stood me up. More fish in the sea, right? Right. 

So there’s C, N, J1, J2, L, and Jo. Those are the guys I’m dealing with offline through text. Of those, I’m most looking forward to J2, but I’m not getting a secure vibe from him either. The first day we texted, we had a pretty consistent back and forth, and he has made me laugh, but who the hell knows lol… I get the feeling he’s playing the field, which is fine, but at the same time, I don’t like to be put on anyone’s back burner. Well, no one does.

Dating is hard, haha. And I just started! I hope J2 asks me out. The thing with D, I wasn’t really all that attracted to him, but I wanted to meet him because of his personality. I’m reasonably attracted to J2 and we’ve had fun conversation. But he texted me last night at 12AM and I was not about to respond to that. Those are booty call hours and I am not the one.

::shurgs:: We’ll see. 

Right now I’m texting C, N, and L all at the same time. For real, I don’t think I’m about this life lol… I just want to hurry up and meet them so I can make a decision with whether or not I want to continue talking to them. I hate having to be polite and make conversation without even seeing their face or body language. That’s so stupid to me. You can't establish a real connection online and I firmly believe that. But at least N said we should get together next week. As did J1. And J2. So that means nothing. Even if they give me a time and place, that still means nothing.

And now the one I love is texting me about how he had a dream about a girl he met a few months ago. 

Yay, my life is so fucking awesome.

Be positive, Jasmine. Tomorrow is another day.