"You deserve a hell of a lot better"

"You deserve a hell of a lot better."

A good friend of mine told me that today after I told him JDrums has yet to respond to my text. I got so into JDrums, I almost forgot that fact and if it weren't for my friend reminding me, I'd probably still be a little hung up on so and so. Yes, I do deserve better because... I'm me, haha. I'm a good person who loves hard and has ambition for days. I'm brave, I'm strong, I'm independent. I don't need validation because I have plenty of confidence to go around. I've traveled the world, I'm a certified sailor, and a good cook. I can speak 3 languages reasonably well and I'm a hard worker. Yes, I deserve someone fucking awesome and I'm not going to settle for someone who doesn't fit my needs. What are those needs? For starters, someone mature and who takes me seriously.

I reached out to JDrums and told him August was a long time from now, hinting I wanted to see him sooner. Nothing too major, just flirting and seeing what he would say. One thing led to another and he suggested meeting somewhere we both have never been. I jokingly said to him "But where haven't you been? Haven't you already been everywhere??" and he never responded.

Honestly, whatever. I get people are busy. The problem is that he hasn't responded in two days, yet he's been on Facebook posting and commenting on stuff. I know he's seen my text and for whatever reason, he's not responding. I just get the feeling he's playing games. I really don't have the time or the patience and I'm too old, mentally, to deal with someone like that. First, he didn't call me for a week because he "didn't want to seem too forthcoming," and now he just seems like a flake. I don't need people like that, I don't care how cute or cool you seem to be.

I want someone reliable, and he doesn't fit the bill. He's lives far away, is always touring, has a young child, and doesn't even seem to have stable communication skills. Who know how many other girls he's doing this to. No thanks, I'll find someone else. I deserve a hell of a lot better than that.

And on that note, I have a date with TLN tonight. He finally reached out and straight up asked me what I was doing the next day. We're going to a tea bar at 7PM, so that should be really nice. I'm kind of excited, but I'm trying not to be. Let's just see if he shows up. If we can get past that, it should be a reasonably good time, haha.

He seems really nerdy and different from the types of guys who usually approach me. I reached out to him first, but I think he liked my pictures, which is what sparked my interest.

I don't know, we'll see how it goes. Hopefully he's nice. Well, I need more than nice. Hopefully we click. It would be cool if he could help me start my garden in the future, too.